The lurking 2 Ps... be gone!!
Went through a series of emotional rollercoasters these past few days, through which I got to have a taste of what a breaking heart felt like, how the beat of the heart could get off-rhythm at times, how the feeling of it being "crumpled" up can get so overbearing at times. I never knew I could actually cry out loud until what happened. How it became all so real to me that I got so afraid of losing. But now, I'm SO relieved that the rides were over. Hopefully it would be a smooth journey ahead.
I don't know why, but I need to get over the paranoia that seemed to surface every once in a while, a feeling so hard to describe it could made me moody, listless and just discourage me from performing my usual tasks. Why could one be so mentally strained and pressured by what's going on in one's mind when what's going on in one's mind might very much actually be just a hoax, a cooked-up imagination, an unbelievably minute and also impossible thing? I can't believe I actually let my mind to run its own factory at times even when I know there's something wrong with the "production" process. No wait, I must tell myself to rule over the factory. Own the factory.
Looking ahead, a road of opportunities await me. So many paths to choose, but which one would lead me to the right destination? Which one would be the oasis in the desert, the silver lining in the cloud, the blessing in disguise?
I have to kill the 2 Ps. Paranoia and Procrastination.
A new week ahead. Job-huntings, interviews await.
Oh, and I'll post some pictures taken from my Thailand trip soon.
Later.
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