Feelings, Etc.
Pardon me if I'm going to add more words into this blog instead of pictures. As you can see, I'm going through a reflective period now. Pictures can wait, can't they? Anyway, you guys reading my blog should already be accustomed to the fact that words are the "pictures" in my blog, right? The thing is, there are many things to express which I like to do in words. Many feelings to put across, though some are undescribable. As far as possible, I will keep an open mind while blogging, except secrets. Everyone has their own secret, don't you?
Went for 2 sessions of tuition so far. My tutees are a pair of brother and sister, primary 2 and primary 3 respectively. Each session of 3 hours teaching them made me wonder if the clock moved 2 seconds instead of 1 second each time. It was amazing. I guess I am very approachable, they "climbed over my head" soon during the first lesson itself, which is rather embracing to know. Then you know what, I'm supposed to be their "nanny", supervise their work, pack their bags for them, look through the timetable with them, READ stories for them. Ok, maybe I'm a "MANNY"(some new word coined by some author). But anyway, I enjoyed doing such stuff with kids. Make me feel young again. And their flawless faces, laughable laughter and gleeful grins are the reason that made me feel a need to commit to their academic and psychological well-being.
Good friday just passed. By evening, I thought it wasn't that "good" at all. Things were a bit rocky between me and her. But I guess things got ironed out and all creases were gone for now. It's hard to keep tension at bay in a relationship, probably due to the differences between Mars and Venus. We talked about how innately different were our characters and the way we were brought up. So, it's only inevitable that sparks were created sometimes. On my part, I could only try to compromise and understand as much as possible, to overlook flaws and acknowledge the strong points.
Recently, trio opened up to me regarding her life, work, relationship, etc, telling me how blue she had been feeling. It breaks my heart to see how a girl who was always used to putting up a brave front actually have her soft spots as well. Just want to tell you trio, you deserve every right to find your own happiness, to lead your own happy life, to walk your own happy path and to smile your own happy smile. You might be going through some hard time but hang on there alright? Look for the rainbow after the rain, the beauty after the pain, ok? And also, thanks for opening up to me, and not being afraid to "cry in front of me". But remember, big girls don't cry(for long). Take some time to re-compose yourself. Wipe your tears together with your fears. I believe you can. =)
Sigh. My dad used to tell me men should never sigh. But what is one to do when life's prospects for now just isn't that high?
1 comment:
For one thing, I think that everyone has the right to sigh.
Good that yr tut is fun.. Ya sometimes it feels young and all to be with kids again. Remember to establish seniority when teaching. V impt to gain their attention and respect as well.
Its really saddening to hear tt u and yr gf have some rough patches. The differences are hard to even out since its not just between the both of u. The past and other ppl in both yr lives are involved. Of cos its a good approach to focus on her good pts. Maybe when things get better, both of u can try to discuss on the bad pts. The rough patches are always best ironed out asap lest they get worse.
Nonetheless, I wish the both of u all the best in tt. Not many ppl can help in this prob. Hopefully the lovely moments u both had are strong enough to tide things thru
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