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Biz Blues 'n' Boosts

These few days, I've been struggling over the thought of whether I should quit my job. I know I know. It's only like 1 week plus into the job and I'm already having this thinking. Actually, a part of me did not want to spend too much of my time on the job especially since it's a 6-day work week. Another part of me kept telling me I should hang on and see how far I can achieve. Moreover, I did not want to quit things so soon halfway. I'm no longer the one I used to be, getting things done halfway and whatever. I want to break through and tell myself that I can perservere too.

Honestly speaking, why I'm even having such inner conflicts is because I'm earning "peanuts" right now. I received comments from my buddy and what that I shouldn't even waste my time on a job that pays only on commission, and which he thinks the amount is puny. I admit that I reserved skepticism for this job too, and of course my bunch of colleagues who are all so amiable and encouraging. Maybe it's a fake environment. But at least, the fakeness, if there ever is, is getting me somewhere. I've learnt quite a bit so far.

Today, I spent literally the whole morning and afternoon practising my pitching skills and talking to my leader, who's very patient and encouraging. To be honest, the prospects he laid out for this business are very very attractive. Like a sure-climb ladder to success. Of course, as I mentioned, I do reserve my share of cynicism on the too-good-to-be-true prospects of even being a manager in a short period of time. However, I realised that it's the power of BELIEVING that your turn to climb up will come very soon that fuels the people around me to work hard and motivating one another. Zooming at me, I feel like I was just procrastinating, and letting my low self-esteem take over me.

My manager gave an example today.
Effort X Time = Results.
E.g. 3 units of effort X 2 units of time = 6 units of results.
5 units of effort X 2 units of time = 10 units of results.

Looking at the above example, giving the same amount of time, you need to add extra effort in order to produce more results within the same period of time. So, you see, success is actually "formulated" too.

So, I have to confess again that I haven't put in ENOUGH effort for the past 7 or 8 days of training. Not because I refused to, but that I still have a tad bit of comfort zone that I need to hurdle across as soon as possible if I need to start seeing moolah coming in on a regular basis. Talked to my leader quite a bit and he said he can't wait to promote me to a corporate trainer. And of course, I can't wait to lead too. To have my own trainees. But there's always the pressure of having to perform in front of the amateurs, right?

And so, I agreed that I would work hard from tomorrow's onwards. I shall put my skepticism aside first and just focus on the riping "fruit".

Of course, I hope to see "peanuts" being muscled into BIG "chestnuts". Haha.