Waiting for my world to change.
It seems that I won't be posting any pics on my blog soon. I guess if you want to see the recent pics I took, like those from HK, you just got to see it on my facebook.
A blog serves as a sanctuary for your thoughts, isn't it?
Well, truth is I have fixed my comp but the sound system is still down, which I don't know why. There goes my favourite entertainment - music and videos for now. =( And what's more appalling is that I'm not at the least bothered about getting the whole sound thing fixed. My mind is set on getting a new laptop. What my sis and dearie said kept ringing in my head... "Buy what you want using your own money."
But the fact as of now is I am still jobless. My tuition kids are off on holidays. That means that I have no income for now. Recently, I'm just surviving on that $800 tuition fee that was owed to me for more than 2 months. And what's more? It's now nearly halved.
Sometimes I just feel like laughing out loud at my pathetic self. But even so, the normality of the world around me would probably snuff any echoes out. And worse still, my mind is still occupied with irrational thoughts at times. It's getting harder to stay sane.
However, another part of me is constantly inspired by stuff that is going on around me. Stuff I have learned to take a liking for. Music and movies. Not so much of books nowadays though I feel an odd sense of obligation to visit Kino everytime I drop by town. It doesn't matter if I buy any books. More recently, I find myself renewing 2 years of Kino membership, just because I felt a need to. It's funny how I can relate to the "bookish" self in me when I usually find it a chore to finish a book, unless it can really capture my attention. And I think I get sleepy easily while reading a book.
There's this part of me that is yearning to break free, to unleash any possible talent I have within me. I feel like I have the capability to accomplish a lot of things but I have not settled down to any. Worse still, I procrastinate about sourcing out for any available opportunities.
As such, I feel empty.
For now, at least.
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