An entry written by a trying-hard-to-be-optimistic-guy. And some insights about him.
Sometimes it's hard not to blame yourself the way you turn out to be. It's like you look in the mirror, you know you are you. It's amazing how you see your reflection actually change in the mirror, from a toddler to a teenager, and now a man. The change is gradual. Sometimes you don't really see a change as from what you see in the mirror. But when emotions take over, you know that you are changing. Ah, the beauty of change. For change is the only constant.
Well, I guess I need to acknowledge the fact that one would have one's own problems to face in different stages of your life. I may have a special problem that's not that common, it's not that uncommon either if you think it another way. Recently I confided in a few friends whom I really trusted and spilled what's going on. And of course my sweet darling who's still hanging on for me. :) I am really thankful that they are really surportive and genuinely concerned with me. And of course I have to thank my parents as well, who have never given up on me. When my Sergeant Major knew of my problem, he spoke to me and kept reassurring me that I am "normal". Lol. He kept repeating the same thing again and again. But the thing is I didn't even think much the other way. I thought, well, "unique" is indeed a better word. Haha. You know what they say about looking to the bright side of life?
I guess some of you might not even know what my problem is. And you might be caught up in some question mark as to what is this guy talking about? It's fine, but I thank those who've shown concern in a way or another. I hope to stay strong and regain my true self soon. I apologise to those who have to endure my unpredictable mood swings. Especially my dear, sorry that you have to see my "triple S face" sometimes. Hehe. But rest assured, I'm fine ya?
Oh, and I want to make a point clear. I may appear to be anti-social at times. You know, nonchalant about things and not really spontaneous. I guess I'm rather passive in a way. Next time, if you want me to talk much, you need to say more than just a "Hi". Maybe "Hi how are you?" But of course, don't regret if the rest of the conversation is filled with nonsensical talks and utter crap. Haha. Of course I'm kidding. The bottom line is, I'm just a rather reserved person. That's my innate character. But honestly, I'm really more than meets the eye. Who knows? You can push the "TRY ME" button for a start. =P
2 comments:
Its good that yr problem is on the way to being lesser. Its always in the time of need that we find out who is best to us and start cherishing them. Once we know who are there for us all the way, we gotta make sure the same applies for them too :)
Btw I really hope to meet u. Its been really long... Im out of work now (voluntarily) so if u have some free time, especially during wkdays since wkends are so precious to u, maybe u can let me know.
Hang in there dude!!
Btw I think my previous response may have hit the nail in the wrong spots, ie a misunderstood reply.
V sorry if I gave crap suggestions cos I din really get the picture.
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