.::Multi-Colored-Dreams::.

All of a sudden, I feel like my world is not spinning the way I want it to be. Too many regrets, too many other dreams I want to fulfil. I know peng is still feeling dejected about the tq results even though he denies it. I can feel the pain building up. Sometimes I just pretend to travel back time to those wonderful days before NS. And I will totally engross myself in those nostalgic moments, hoping to relive them. And yes, I know I'm living in self denial. But I'm harping on my memories to keep me alive. To keep me knowing that I am who I am, that I am sane. The Earth spins without stopping, though we can't really feel it. But this whole world is setting itself on a dizzy pace, and it is up to us to keep up with the pace or lack behind. I really hate this whole feeling.

All of a sudden I feel like going back to my childhood days, where I played without any sense of guilt. Where I ran without feeling the wind against me. Where I climbed high without the fear of falling. Where I cycled around the neighbourhood against the flow of traffic. Where I could be any superhero I want to be. Where I feel so free that I forget myself for a while.

All of a sudden I feel like crying. I feel this intense sensation within me. I remember reading how Oscar Wilde's Happy Prince statue felt this crack in his heart. How the Happy Prince felt sorrow for the little sparrow which had become his friend but died in the end. In The Happy Prince, the eyes of the prince's statue were initially gone, then followed by the golden skin of the statue, then alas, everything crumbled.

Everything crumbled.

So tell me, who is there to pick up all the shattered pieces? Who can rewind everything back to the part where the Happy Prince once stood there happy and proud, with no worries, standing tall and looking out far towards the city, where the sparrow flew with glee and understood what freedom actually meant?

All of a sudden...

You heard someone crying. And it can't be me. It just can't be.