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Speak Volumes

Alright I'm back again. Hi. Haha. Guess what guys? It's been a smooth-sailing week for me! Thanks for all the encouragement and thanks for cheering me up. I guess me feeling low for the previous week was probably just another back-to-army-life-dread thing. So yea! At least this week I got to talk quite a bit with lots more of my camp mates and all the way through I kept my spirits high enough to last me till this book out. Hehe.

So anyway, I had outfield exercise on Thursday, which was yesterday. I dread that so much but my best friend texted me something which I thought was really meaningful.

"Every sweat is for your loved ones".

It kept me going. Really. I guess many people find serving the nation a chore and a bore, deeming it as a waste of time. As a matter of fact, I felt that way too. But I believe I should look at the other side of the grass for it should be greener. Hence, it's all about how you think. Give yourself a purpose and you will find it all worthwhile going through all the soil and toil.

On another note, it kept raining these two days. Due to that, we only had one deployment instead of the intended four. So after our first deployment, we were all hiding in our tonners waiting for the rain to stop, or rather praying for the rain not to stop. Lol. And I guess it overheard our prayers. For it kept raining and raining and raining non-stop. Even till now. So we headed back to camp late last night around 3am. Next week we would be going for our Battalion Fatep, another exercise in which we would be evaluated this time round. Gosh. I must strive on!

Sometimes, I find it really interesting to listen to conversations among my other camp mates, whom mainly are lesser educated. Surprisingly, they know a whole lot of other stuff that I may not know. They might not be academically wise but they are street-smart and socially independent. That I really salute them.

You know, sometimes, I really admire their do-dares and courage, how they are not afraid to speak up to fight for their rights, be it to a higher rank. And they are very loyal to their friends and buddies. Sometimes, I wish I had not been a nerd all my academic life before NS. I wish I had got in a bad school, I wish I had fights. I know this sounds insane, but I wish I had more exposure to the real life out there. For the reality is it is a harsh world. Coming to NS just makes me realise that there are so many different people from different walks of life and their rich experiences in life are sometimes shocking but REAL.

And I realise I lack aggression, an intrinsic creature instinct. Since we live in a world where it's all about the survival of the fittest, I guess this is a really important trait. And please don't misunderstand me. Aggression not necessarily involve violence. It merely means to be there for what you want and stand up for the right reasons.

Say goodbye to the soft-spoken me soon. I hope.

But don't be afraid ok? HAHA.