I am so confused. It's like the past was creeping back. I don't know what I am doing sometimes. I'm almost going crazy. I am just like a child. I need someone to tell me that I am doing ok. I need assurance, badly.
I hate myself... Why do I seem to give in to urges so easily? Things that are clearly wrong. I know it very well. But why? Why do I still give in? It is almost like things beyond control. It is contradiction against my own morals and values. To this, I really hate myself.
I feel so empty. It's like my world is going around without a cause. Lifeless zombie walking around aimlessly. What am I doing???
Thanks to all my friends who are always there to support me. Sorry if I'm putting a false front all the while. Honestly, deep inside me, I am not happy. I don't want to hide this from all of you. Forgive the selfish, self-centered and arrogant me.
Sorry. Treat this as a flare of the moment. And don't have to worry about me alright. I'll be fine. I hope.
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