I'm back with a new blog again! Not that I always like changing blogs, but I find xanga's blogging space too limited. And guess what, I'm using back the template I used in one of my previous blogs! I just like it too much! Nothing beats simplicity!
Since I'll be in camp most of the times, I can only update my blog every weekend. I try! Anyway, being in a unit now, I've never felt so lonely before. I simply can't find anyone to communicate with. It's sad. All my other friends are posted to different units. I'm all alone in this camp, still struggling to regain myself. I am a totally different person in camp. So hard to be myself. Not that I don't want, but I find it hard to show my true colours. The environment is just so suffocating. I need air to breathe. Not to mention that the mono-intakes smoke like nobody's business. And recently the government is restricting smoking areas outside shophouses, coffeeshops and restaurants. How comforting.
Next week, Aaron will be serving NS. Finally it's his turn! 2 more weeks later, ah neh is joining him as well. It's amazing to see how you have become one of the "old birds" and that your friends are also entering one after another. Don't know why, but it brings along a sense of loss. Not that I physically lose anybody, but the pain is there. I've felt the pain when I've entered NS, how I have drifted away from my once closed friends. Albeit I'm happy for them that they are leading fulfilling busy lives, I'm appalled by how our relationships turned out. Is this part of the NS challenge too? I really don't like this. Even my closest female friend is already occupied in her own world. I feel so lost... And I'm already feeling the pinch..
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