Stop the snooze.
It's no surprise to see that my blog entries are now seperated by a few days at one go, punctuated by pauses every now and then. I'm not even sure who reads my blog nowadays anyway. It's getting mundane bit by bit.
My personal life currently ain't getting any better as well, been through lots and ups and downs. Life after ORD does not seem as carefree as it seems to be, eh? You know, there have been a number of occasions when I kind of REALLY missed army life. Back there, I had so much company and everyday was a new experience. I missed those greeneries, those 2 days 1 night field exercises which I loved and hated. Though there were tough times, but they were generally memorable, with all my army camp mates, and my bunk mates especially. Ahh..
Just started school 2 days back. Evening class. Not that bad. Quite light-hearted actually. But I guess a lot of it now really depends on independent learning. And it's really high-time now I learn to be independent, having been so laid back for so long. Suddenly, it dawned upon me that I'm stepping into the adult world(Though I refused to accept the fact).
What lies ahead? I used to say it's uncertainties. However, my point of view changed quite a bit, since every thinking and action you make is pivotal to what you get at the end. So don't undermine your thinkings. The past made me realise that I have not done much to use my time wisely, and hence causing disappointment to not just myself but others as well.
So perhaps, it's now a good time for me to shape things up, to redeem myself for good. It might be a blurry future, but the future lies in your own hands. That is really true.
Maybe I should start setting an "alarm clock" now for me to wake up from all the past nightmares and start creating a new dream of my own.
Onward!
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