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Yesterday Once More

These few recent book outs, I realise I am descending into the pit of loneliness. It's like I was wandering on the streets alone. Wandering aimlessly. It's not that I don't have friends to turn to. It's that I don't have friends who are readily there to turn to. It's like after enlisting in NS, you find that social life has become quite a struggle.

The struggle to keep relationships alive, the struggle to keep friendships intact.

Do you realise how hard it is? And that's why I say entering NS is a challenge. It serves as a challenge not internally, but externally as well. It eats into your precious time such that you have little time to enrich your social life. But still, I gotta be thankful for this challenge. If not for that, I won't be able to understand and cherish the importance of my friends. Distance, indeed, makes the heart grow fonder.

I drove back to my old childhood residence yesterday at Jurong East late at night. And I just can't believe things have changed so much there. All the renovations have eradicated the traces of my childhood hangouts. But the memories are etched on my mind forever. The smell still vivid. Travelling back there is almost like re-living your past. Your wonderful, beautiful childhood past. A kind of past which I am really really proud of. It is so fulfilling. Without my childhood, I won't possibly have met my best friend of 18+ years. Without my childhood, I won't possibly know how it is like to be young again.

As a child, I was crazy, adventurous, daring, unrealistic. Heights don't scare me. Excitment always kept me going. I had wonderful moments. Wonderful experiences. You know, the one thing about being a child is you don't realise what danger is, hence there is no fear. You are so utterly confident of yourself that you dare to do stunts that may be dangerous. But you did not think of the word "danger". It has never occurred your mind. What you wanted was excitement, accomplishment. And satisfaction is what a child always wanted!

Sometimes, too much knowledge of the outside world kills creativity. That explains why not many people would venture into entrepreneurship. Not many people dare to risk walking on untreaded paths.

Since this year is coming to an end, I have come up with my resolution for next year, subjective to changes though.

"Go back to my roots."

Yes, I am going to live like a child again. Let me be crazy, adventurous, daring, unrealistic once more.