Rants and Wants and thoughts
Can you believe it?! I actually stayed at home on a Saturday!!! Oh yeah, it must have been one of the few Saturdays where I practically stayed home. Usually I would definitely hang out somewhere in town with my friends. But yeah, as you could have guessed, there's only one reason that's stopping me from going out today. I'm broke.
HAHAHA I'm already laughing at my pathetic-ality. Seriously. I remember a friend once told me that being in the arts industry is like a sitting on a see-saw. There are times you go up and there are times you go down. So when you are up, you get filthy rich. If you are down, you might just be dirt broke. For me, I don't really think I'm that sort of person who would want to live a career life with a 8 to 5 job. That is too stifling. Too suffocating. And I would never want to do admin work. I would rather go for hard labour and move those freaking heavy stuff if I had to, honestly speaking. Actually, I thought I would want a more adventurous career path. So I'm going to settle down with some business and get on with my music stuff at the same time. So on one hand you might just see me wearing that business suit, on the other hand you can picture seeing me with my hair down(if there's much hair) and pounding away furiously on the electronic keyboard or piano. The possibilities are endless. I think I need to make it happen though. HAHAHA. I think being in the army has made me WANT things so badly.
So here are my WANTS for now...
CASH
GOOD JOB
PERFORMING OPPORTUNITIES
Oh my, ooh lala, I can't imagine I actually sound like some practical freak.
The other day we were on a coach on our way to SAFTI, my sergeant major came to sit beside me. He was talking to my front and back and side and they were discussing about buying PSP and what not. Gaming stuff. Then he turned to ask me if I play games. I said "No" without a pause. So he asked me what I was doing back in bunk where he saw me scribbling on a book. I told him I was writing poetry. And he gave me the "Wow" expression. Seriously, I also don't know why I like to write poems or sketch or whatever. It's like really avenues of expression for me. I seek solace in these avenues. Just as much as I'm playing on the piano or just belting out any song. I guess people do change.
I used to indulge in game playing a lot in the past. However, I just can't afford to get myself hooked again, since I know I have already so minimal of bookout time. That's why I always avoid going to LAN gaming. But I still can't forget the idea of grabbing the latest Command and Conquer 3!! Haha. Wait till I get my next pay!
I realise I enjoy running at night. Recently while slacking away in camp, I would go for occasional runs in camp at night. The tranquility of night time really draws me. And the night breeze is just so comforting. Talking about running, I'm thinking of going gyming or swimming this Monday or Tuesday since I'll be having off! Yeah.
I chatted with an acquaintance over MSN yesterday. He is like 30 years old or so. I was jokingly asking him when he's getting married. And he's telling me he's still waiting for the right one to settle down. Then he was unabashedly telling me that there are actually female counterparts after him. So I asked him why not pick one from the list? He replied me, "You don't know guys huh? Easy targets are not satisfying." Something like that. Haha that's really bingo. As in, I used to think that way too. Not as if there are many targets around, but yeah, that's probably why I don't rush into getting on.
But to think of it, the wonders of human mind. How amusing society has caused our pattern of thoughts to differ. In terms to men vs women. The ever-going-on Battle of the Sexes. And men are supposed to be Martians while women are supposed to be some Venusian?!
Oh oh, but I think I might have just have someone in mind.
Keep it a secret, would ya?
Saturday, March 31, 2007
Friday, March 30, 2007
Hey peeps! Sorry for the MIA! I didn't mean to MIA from blogging, just that I have been really busy with army stuff these few weeks. Guess what my last weekend was burnt! Had to do guard duty at SAFTI and was involved in the SAF's COC parade preparations. If you don't have a clue what it is, you just need to know that I was basically helping out in doing all the "sai kang". Carrying of heavy wooden planks and laying them for the army vehicles to tread on. There went my weekend. But beforehand, got to apply a night's off to celebrate Ying Peng's birthday together with Qianhui. Went to Hark Music Cafe again and we had lotsa fun. Here's some pics!
Hehe, gave him a little surprise. I volunteered to go up the stage and sang him a birthday song. And I didn't know what I was talking, but the crowd kept laughing at my every phrase. Lol. But yeah, invited him on stage later to sing a duet with me, our usual theme song of course. It felt really great. Hope it was a memorable night for you peng!
Alright, wasn't such a bad burnt weekend. Got to book out in and out for little breaks outside. So it was generally ok. But this week was real hectic. We had rehearsals everyday for our unit's COC parade. Wouldn't want to bore you with the details. Just know that I had to perspire like mad each day under the scorching sun in order for today's event to happen. Yeah, make it happen. We did. And it was so "happening" that I only got home around 9 plus 10 at night. But we are compensated with Monday and Tuesday off next week!! Yay!!
Sounds good? But it sucks when you are low on funds. Damn it. How I wish I could transfer my neopoints into real moolah. I would have billions of dollars. Lol. Sigh, now I really must make full use of the coming break. What should I do? What can I do without spending? Seems hard in a society like Singapore huh!
Anyway, after I get my next pay, think I would invest on the new game Command and Conquer 3! I saw the launch at Shaw House the other day and I was so tempted to buy it! Red Alert was so damn fucking nice to play can? Like the best ever strategy war game. Yea, I missed game playing. Ever since JC I have not been playing much computer games. Guess it's back to the habit soon. But hopefully I would not end up going to LAN shops which is a really waste of my precious time. Haha I rather stay in the comfort odf my own home!
Ok will be back with more adventures!!!
Sunday, March 18, 2007
I've been living with a shadow overhead
The week did pass by pretty fast this time. It was a slack week alright. I was just waking up each day for breakfast and sleeping again till noon for lunch then sleeping again till dinner then sleeping again after that. How boring unit life can be sometimes. But of course I would prefer this to relentless trainings outfield.
Had nights out on Wednesday and I watched this movie "Music and Lyrics" with Qianhui. I think it's a perfect cinema movie. Not that it's a cinematic movie or epic in any sense, but the kind of movie you would want to snuggle with your loved one laugh your way through. It's a nice little flick. The song's playing in my blog now is the soundtrack in the movie. I kinda liked it.
This couple of weekends weren't that fulfilling cos I didn't get to do as much. Meetups didn't turn out right. It seems like my social life's messed up. Screw army.
But then, I'll take this slack period as an opportunity to train myself physically.
Yea. Gotta pump my worries away.
The week did pass by pretty fast this time. It was a slack week alright. I was just waking up each day for breakfast and sleeping again till noon for lunch then sleeping again till dinner then sleeping again after that. How boring unit life can be sometimes. But of course I would prefer this to relentless trainings outfield.
Had nights out on Wednesday and I watched this movie "Music and Lyrics" with Qianhui. I think it's a perfect cinema movie. Not that it's a cinematic movie or epic in any sense, but the kind of movie you would want to snuggle with your loved one laugh your way through. It's a nice little flick. The song's playing in my blog now is the soundtrack in the movie. I kinda liked it.
This couple of weekends weren't that fulfilling cos I didn't get to do as much. Meetups didn't turn out right. It seems like my social life's messed up. Screw army.
But then, I'll take this slack period as an opportunity to train myself physically.
Yea. Gotta pump my worries away.
God speed your love to me
Drove 2 of my close bunk mates out for supper on Friday night, which was 2 days ago. Then had to send one to Bedok while the other to Bukit Panjang. Was driving along PIE when suddenly I saw this blinding flash of light. I thought perhaps we were in some star arena and my car was driving along some distinguished red carpet with all the paparazzi snapping away. Then I came to realise. Shit.
*FLASH*
Smile! You're on Speed Camera!
Damn damn damn. I was all so paranoid. But I recalled checking my speed at that moment. It was only 80km/h. And I was on the middle lane. I recalled seeing a car on my right overtake me. Please tell me the car's the one they are going after. Whoever the "they" are. I assured my friend who was sitting next to me that I was driving at 80km/h when the speed limit is 90km/h. He assured me back that it should not be me. It MUST not be me!!! Argh. That kinda spoiled my mood. Even I was doubtful of myself. A big part of me definitely wished that I wasn't the one, the other part of me remained cynical. I wouldn't want to get any demerit points unnecessarily.
Why must I be the one to witness this shit?! Damn it damn it damn it. Heck.
Maybe I should avoid driving fast(well, sometimes) next time to avoid my overwhelming paranoia which is definitely not avoiding my weak mind.
Praying.
Drove 2 of my close bunk mates out for supper on Friday night, which was 2 days ago. Then had to send one to Bedok while the other to Bukit Panjang. Was driving along PIE when suddenly I saw this blinding flash of light. I thought perhaps we were in some star arena and my car was driving along some distinguished red carpet with all the paparazzi snapping away. Then I came to realise. Shit.
*FLASH*
Smile! You're on Speed Camera!
Damn damn damn. I was all so paranoid. But I recalled checking my speed at that moment. It was only 80km/h. And I was on the middle lane. I recalled seeing a car on my right overtake me. Please tell me the car's the one they are going after. Whoever the "they" are. I assured my friend who was sitting next to me that I was driving at 80km/h when the speed limit is 90km/h. He assured me back that it should not be me. It MUST not be me!!! Argh. That kinda spoiled my mood. Even I was doubtful of myself. A big part of me definitely wished that I wasn't the one, the other part of me remained cynical. I wouldn't want to get any demerit points unnecessarily.
Why must I be the one to witness this shit?! Damn it damn it damn it. Heck.
Maybe I should avoid driving fast(well, sometimes) next time to avoid my overwhelming paranoia which is definitely not avoiding my weak mind.
Praying.
Saturday, March 10, 2007
Not Too Late
There's some points I want to make across straight.
I can't tolerate people who are late. Even close friends. You can afford to be late a little. I do understand and I do give and take. But being late too much is just too much.
Albeit all that, I think I'm already a very patient person. I don't have the habit of pestering the person even if he/she is late. Maybe just a random call or sms to find out his/her whereabouts. Other than that, I usually just wait for the person to call/sms me if he/she plans to.
However, I do have my limits. I do not openly flare up in front of the person. But I am quite expressive. As in you can tell from my face whether I'm pissed or not. And sometimes, when I get fed up, I'll just leave to be on my own. I may send a sms or something to explain the reason why I'm pissed. And if I bother to do so, it only shows I am being honest with you and that I show how I feel that's because I treat you as a close friend.
So my apologies if I went overboard somehow. I may get pissed easily, but I do forgive easily too.
And I sincerely do understand that no one is perfect. And it's not too late to realise that.
There's some points I want to make across straight.
I can't tolerate people who are late. Even close friends. You can afford to be late a little. I do understand and I do give and take. But being late too much is just too much.
Albeit all that, I think I'm already a very patient person. I don't have the habit of pestering the person even if he/she is late. Maybe just a random call or sms to find out his/her whereabouts. Other than that, I usually just wait for the person to call/sms me if he/she plans to.
However, I do have my limits. I do not openly flare up in front of the person. But I am quite expressive. As in you can tell from my face whether I'm pissed or not. And sometimes, when I get fed up, I'll just leave to be on my own. I may send a sms or something to explain the reason why I'm pissed. And if I bother to do so, it only shows I am being honest with you and that I show how I feel that's because I treat you as a close friend.
So my apologies if I went overboard somehow. I may get pissed easily, but I do forgive easily too.
And I sincerely do understand that no one is perfect. And it's not too late to realise that.
GOLD GOAL
Ladies and gentlemen, I have something to announce... I finally got a GOLD for my IPPT!!! Oh come on, show me your love!!! Wahaha. It's a long awaited award man.. I've been getting Silver all the way since BMT. It's really like all the way. Until last week's IPPT test, I still had a Silver, but with full points, 25 points. My timing was 9.54, it was 10 seconds away from getting a gold. And I finally made it this week!! I got a proud timing of 9.33! What an accomplishment. Haha. To think that getting gold during JC Napfa was no kick, there's really some kick in army's IPPT. Lol. But I kicked it in the ass anyway. So WOOHOOOOOO!!! Oh and by the way, I'm proud of my detachment(section/bunk) as well. Out of 8 of us, 7 of us attained GOLD!!! Can you beat that? We are the only detachment with the highest number of people getting gold!! Wooohoooo. Oh yea, so right now, I can happily cross it off my wishlist. =)
So yea, the weekends are finally here. Been a physical week. But I didn't do much since I've passed most of the physical stuff. Hehe. So if you were to peek at me in camp, you would probably see me slacking away, dozing away or just sleeping on the floor in my bunk. And you might have caught me naked at times. Ok I'm kidding. Maybe half-naked. Lol.
Anyway, yay, it's past midnight. So it's now the 10th March. And 10th of every month is a very happy day for every soldier. Cos it's PAYDAY babeh. Alright you heard me. Haha. Can't believe I'm always so broke. Army pay really damn pathetic. But I just heard from my friend today that he managed to save like at least 100 bucks every month. Damn. Maybe I should start saving too! Okok! Someday I will!
One of my bunk mates just suddenly told me this, asking me to imagine that if I were to be diminished to only my skeleton, my braces will be still there. -_- Ok laugh pls. Cos I think it's really funny too. Yea and go ahead and make fun of my braces. As far as I know, I like wearing it!
He shouldn't have watched the movie "Ghost Rider". How can some animated skeleton on a motorbike win an Oscar? Ha.
So anyway, I was singing the "Shut Up" song to the same guy, who is a Chinese. As in China-Chinese. And he was like "Oh I know this song, is it sang by Black Beans"?
Enough said.
While I was in camp and was on my way to the toilet, I suddenly heard this "wah" from somewhere and this friend of mine came up to me and say, "Wah Chao Shun you also have 6-pack ah? Did you gek it? Can teach me how to train?" I stared at him in disbelief and I didn't know what to say. I only went "huh?" Actually in my mind I could see myself like with my hands on my hip and throwing my head back and saying "Yeah, isn't it obvious? And if I really gek you might just see another 6." Ok I'm just kidding. I'm just amused when some people can be so straightforward at times. Oh, but my sis likes to tease me, saying, "Oh is it 6 minus 6 pack?" Haha. Whatever.
You know, I followed my elder sis and her bf to the gym today. Her bf taught me some basic gym. It suddenly dawned upon me that I'm not so much of a gym person. I mean, I would rather go running, swimming, or do the normal circuit stuff, like pushups, chinups, situps, crunches and all that. More of an outdoor thing for me. I can't really stand being in a compact room with lots of moanings and red-headed-face-flushed people who lift like they want to be lifted elsewhere, you know? Yeah, but still, it's a good thing to hit the gym occasionally.
And Saturday is here! Can't wait for more adventures! Haha.
Ladies and gentlemen, I have something to announce... I finally got a GOLD for my IPPT!!! Oh come on, show me your love!!! Wahaha. It's a long awaited award man.. I've been getting Silver all the way since BMT. It's really like all the way. Until last week's IPPT test, I still had a Silver, but with full points, 25 points. My timing was 9.54, it was 10 seconds away from getting a gold. And I finally made it this week!! I got a proud timing of 9.33! What an accomplishment. Haha. To think that getting gold during JC Napfa was no kick, there's really some kick in army's IPPT. Lol. But I kicked it in the ass anyway. So WOOHOOOOOO!!! Oh and by the way, I'm proud of my detachment(section/bunk) as well. Out of 8 of us, 7 of us attained GOLD!!! Can you beat that? We are the only detachment with the highest number of people getting gold!! Wooohoooo. Oh yea, so right now, I can happily cross it off my wishlist. =)
So yea, the weekends are finally here. Been a physical week. But I didn't do much since I've passed most of the physical stuff. Hehe. So if you were to peek at me in camp, you would probably see me slacking away, dozing away or just sleeping on the floor in my bunk. And you might have caught me naked at times. Ok I'm kidding. Maybe half-naked. Lol.
Anyway, yay, it's past midnight. So it's now the 10th March. And 10th of every month is a very happy day for every soldier. Cos it's PAYDAY babeh. Alright you heard me. Haha. Can't believe I'm always so broke. Army pay really damn pathetic. But I just heard from my friend today that he managed to save like at least 100 bucks every month. Damn. Maybe I should start saving too! Okok! Someday I will!
One of my bunk mates just suddenly told me this, asking me to imagine that if I were to be diminished to only my skeleton, my braces will be still there. -_- Ok laugh pls. Cos I think it's really funny too. Yea and go ahead and make fun of my braces. As far as I know, I like wearing it!
He shouldn't have watched the movie "Ghost Rider". How can some animated skeleton on a motorbike win an Oscar? Ha.
So anyway, I was singing the "Shut Up" song to the same guy, who is a Chinese. As in China-Chinese. And he was like "Oh I know this song, is it sang by Black Beans"?
Enough said.
While I was in camp and was on my way to the toilet, I suddenly heard this "wah" from somewhere and this friend of mine came up to me and say, "Wah Chao Shun you also have 6-pack ah? Did you gek it? Can teach me how to train?" I stared at him in disbelief and I didn't know what to say. I only went "huh?" Actually in my mind I could see myself like with my hands on my hip and throwing my head back and saying "Yeah, isn't it obvious? And if I really gek you might just see another 6." Ok I'm just kidding. I'm just amused when some people can be so straightforward at times. Oh, but my sis likes to tease me, saying, "Oh is it 6 minus 6 pack?" Haha. Whatever.
You know, I followed my elder sis and her bf to the gym today. Her bf taught me some basic gym. It suddenly dawned upon me that I'm not so much of a gym person. I mean, I would rather go running, swimming, or do the normal circuit stuff, like pushups, chinups, situps, crunches and all that. More of an outdoor thing for me. I can't really stand being in a compact room with lots of moanings and red-headed-face-flushed people who lift like they want to be lifted elsewhere, you know? Yeah, but still, it's a good thing to hit the gym occasionally.
And Saturday is here! Can't wait for more adventures! Haha.
Sunday, March 04, 2007
Why Do All Good Things Come To An End? They Won't If You Don't Want Them To. =)
Came back from a meetup with my bro Nesh. So we were talking about girls and relationship and stuff. Definitely not that kind of desperado stuff that you might be thinking of. It's serious talk. Am glad that he opened up towards me and told me what's bothering him. Hopefully I'll be of help to you bro! But I'm not sure about the part when you said we might as well turn gay since only guys can understand guy problems, as you said. But don't do foolish things lah, ok? Lol. I shall not disclose much of what we talked about, cos there are ladies reading this too. Now, who says guys can't keep secrets?
Woohoo, though Sundays can be depressing since it's the day I have to book in, I really enjoy the little moments of just chilling out at some hawker or cafe and sipping on teh and crunching on kaya toast. Ahh those pre-army days. Nostalgia! Simple yet splendid way to keep conversations going. We were driving around in our own cars. The feeling is simply great! If only Sundays last without ending.
We were checking out books in the bookshops and libraries. And I can't wait to read Chuck Palahniuk's The Fight Club. Currently, I'm reading his "Choke" and it is brilliant. His words really make me think a lot.
Ok, so the emo me was taking a shower just now(and hopefully no one was peeping on me), and this title "No Man's Island" came to my mind and hence the first few sentences. I decided to pen it down and write a poem out of it.
Without stopping,
Came back from a meetup with my bro Nesh. So we were talking about girls and relationship and stuff. Definitely not that kind of desperado stuff that you might be thinking of. It's serious talk. Am glad that he opened up towards me and told me what's bothering him. Hopefully I'll be of help to you bro! But I'm not sure about the part when you said we might as well turn gay since only guys can understand guy problems, as you said. But don't do foolish things lah, ok? Lol. I shall not disclose much of what we talked about, cos there are ladies reading this too. Now, who says guys can't keep secrets?
Woohoo, though Sundays can be depressing since it's the day I have to book in, I really enjoy the little moments of just chilling out at some hawker or cafe and sipping on teh and crunching on kaya toast. Ahh those pre-army days. Nostalgia! Simple yet splendid way to keep conversations going. We were driving around in our own cars. The feeling is simply great! If only Sundays last without ending.
We were checking out books in the bookshops and libraries. And I can't wait to read Chuck Palahniuk's The Fight Club. Currently, I'm reading his "Choke" and it is brilliant. His words really make me think a lot.
Ok, so the emo me was taking a shower just now(and hopefully no one was peeping on me), and this title "No Man's Island" came to my mind and hence the first few sentences. I decided to pen it down and write a poem out of it.
No Man's Island
Standing tall,
Admist them all.
On the run,
Under the sun.
Neck craning,
Stiffening.
Bewildered,
By the wilderness.
On his own,
Nevertheless.
Without stopping,
Kept on panting.
Pull and push,
Bush after bush.
Night's stirring,
Fear sets in.
No man's island,
Isolates him.
Oh how I love my sexy legs!
Ok sorry but I had to start my blog entry that way so I can have the urge to write this entry. LOL. Ok but seriously, my legs were aching in the past few days from all the running. And there'll be more training next week in order to achieve GOLD in IPPT. I'm just 10 seconds away...
Anyway, just got back from a day out with Peng, as usual. Under much enthusiasm shown by him, I joined him in watching the movie Dreamgirls. Yea it was an awesome movie alright. But I think it's too diva-ish. But the girls were great. Jennifer Hudson totally ruled the entire show. Her voice was just amazing. And she could damn well act as well. Attitude is the word. She deserved to get an Oscar for Best Supporting Actress.
We had a talk over a cuppa coffee at jp's mc cafe. Were discussing about our lives, and how to make them really like we are living lives. You know? Being in the army is already a torture. So I have to lessen that torture by making full use of my life! I mean, I'm already 21 years old!!! Ok, besides the fact that I'm happy that I can now watch R21 movies, I just can't ignore the fact that I'm growing old! By the way, I took a cab back home from camp yesterday. And the uncle asked if I were a reservist. He's not the first. So, if any of you taxi uncles are reading my blog, let me clarify for once...
I'M NOT A FUCKING RESERVIST!!!
Oops, sorry I should have kept my cool. Ok, I need to calm myself down. Maybe it's just that I am tall and whatever. And tall -> big sized. That I understand. But if tall -> big sized -> reservist?!?! Ok somebody do the screaming for me!!! Actually I don't really care la. Today I met an old secondary school friend whom I didn't really talk to. I mean I didn't really talk to anyone in the past. I was a nerd alright. I've said that many times. She was working at "The Used CD" shop at Marina Square. I greeted her first and she was shocked to see me, cos she said she couldn't recognise me. And she said "Wah you are now fit and very tanned". Ok at least she used the word "tanned" and not "black". I knew she was an Arts student.
Ok, I was supposed to talk about what mi and peng were talking about right? Oh yea I was thinking how not to waste time anymore. Like do something useful. Somehow I find myself on the crossroads in this jucture of my life. People say I have a talent for this and that. But as my self-esteem is still not that strong, I am always cynical about myself. Ok, at least I started taking up courses like my piano improvisation course, doing something I like. But I don't know what will come out of it. I mean, I'd love to perform some day. But you gotta have the opportunities, the avenues. So I'm waiting... And I always believe that since I only live life once, I need to make it an exciting one.
So here's the pic of the day. Don't try this at home. Or anywhere.
Ok sorry but I had to start my blog entry that way so I can have the urge to write this entry. LOL. Ok but seriously, my legs were aching in the past few days from all the running. And there'll be more training next week in order to achieve GOLD in IPPT. I'm just 10 seconds away...
Anyway, just got back from a day out with Peng, as usual. Under much enthusiasm shown by him, I joined him in watching the movie Dreamgirls. Yea it was an awesome movie alright. But I think it's too diva-ish. But the girls were great. Jennifer Hudson totally ruled the entire show. Her voice was just amazing. And she could damn well act as well. Attitude is the word. She deserved to get an Oscar for Best Supporting Actress.
We had a talk over a cuppa coffee at jp's mc cafe. Were discussing about our lives, and how to make them really like we are living lives. You know? Being in the army is already a torture. So I have to lessen that torture by making full use of my life! I mean, I'm already 21 years old!!! Ok, besides the fact that I'm happy that I can now watch R21 movies, I just can't ignore the fact that I'm growing old! By the way, I took a cab back home from camp yesterday. And the uncle asked if I were a reservist. He's not the first. So, if any of you taxi uncles are reading my blog, let me clarify for once...
I'M NOT A FUCKING RESERVIST!!!
Oops, sorry I should have kept my cool. Ok, I need to calm myself down. Maybe it's just that I am tall and whatever. And tall -> big sized. That I understand. But if tall -> big sized -> reservist?!?! Ok somebody do the screaming for me!!! Actually I don't really care la. Today I met an old secondary school friend whom I didn't really talk to. I mean I didn't really talk to anyone in the past. I was a nerd alright. I've said that many times. She was working at "The Used CD" shop at Marina Square. I greeted her first and she was shocked to see me, cos she said she couldn't recognise me. And she said "Wah you are now fit and very tanned". Ok at least she used the word "tanned" and not "black". I knew she was an Arts student.
Ok, I was supposed to talk about what mi and peng were talking about right? Oh yea I was thinking how not to waste time anymore. Like do something useful. Somehow I find myself on the crossroads in this jucture of my life. People say I have a talent for this and that. But as my self-esteem is still not that strong, I am always cynical about myself. Ok, at least I started taking up courses like my piano improvisation course, doing something I like. But I don't know what will come out of it. I mean, I'd love to perform some day. But you gotta have the opportunities, the avenues. So I'm waiting... And I always believe that since I only live life once, I need to make it an exciting one.
So here's the pic of the day. Don't try this at home. Or anywhere.
Saturday, March 03, 2007
The Reality Show
Howdie! I hope you guys don't get bored when I always seem to start my blog entry with a summary of what happened in the week. Pardon me but I guess I can only start it this way since being in the army pretty bores me and I just have to thrash it all out briefly to get it over and to look forward to a new week. I mean, not exactly looking forward, more like I'm forced to.
So anyway, our CO has pushed all plans of outfield exercises till April and May just to make way for us to train for our IPPT and SOC for the whole month of March since the first year window period is closing soon. It is really lame. We are slogging our asses out and perspiring like mad just because our CO wants to achieve the Best Unit award. Seriously, army life can be so meaningless sometimes. But do I have a choice? Obviously not.
Let's see, Monday and Tuesday got a "surprise" motivation talk course by some retired RSM who has become "enlightened" and has now come up with some motivation speech. He is hired for $5000 in a span of 2 days just because our CO hopes to train us mentally so we can perform well in IPPT. That was undescribably lame. Yeah, the talk was interesting at times, but most of the time I was just dozing away. So in the end, waste of time. They shouldn't give such prep talk to army guys. We are already burdened enough.
Wednesday and Thursday went through physical training. Was aiming for Gold for my IPPT. I have earlier passed my SOC on my first attempt. So was just concentrating on my IPPT. All along, my IPPT result is SILVER all the way. I managed to get gold standards for every single station except my 2.4km run which is really quite a challenge. And I just took IPPT test today. Guess what? I was only 10 seconds away from getting GOLD!! My timing was 9.54!! But it was a vast improvement for me. The next test will be on next Wednesday. My sergeant major had plans to focus on me and a group of silver elites. So hopefully he wants us to bring along glory. Yawnz. If not that I don't have a choice, I would rather be satisfied with a Silver. But I know I should always test my limits. And I do enjoy trainings. At least I have a 6-pack in exchange now, though it can be more defined. Lol. So I shall run with a smile no matter what! I LOVE TRAININGS I LOVE TRAININGS. Now get that right.
Sorry if the stuff above bores you. It kinda bores me writing about army. But I have no choice. I have to vent it out. Sorry I have stained you my poor bloggie. Ok so now let's talk about other stuff.
Hmm, sometimes I wonder, is it that hard for a guy and a girl to maintain just a platonic relationship? Why is it that it seems like an obligation to many that once a guy gets to know a girl, they got to be together? For me, I'm still the old-fashioned kind of guy who would want a near-perfect girl for a girlfriend and I would want my relationship to last! But the thing is, it seems somehow impossible in this real world.
Somehow, the unreal seems more appealing than the real, don't you think so? I mean, look at the real stuff. Wood rots, stone crumbles, and humans die eventually. Now look at the unreal. A legend lives forever, fairytales are "happily ever after", and the virtual world has simply no boundaries, free for you to explore... So the moral is? Worship the unreal.
I am real though. But I like to be unreal sometimes.
But people always say, get real. So what say you? Are you real too?
Howdie! I hope you guys don't get bored when I always seem to start my blog entry with a summary of what happened in the week. Pardon me but I guess I can only start it this way since being in the army pretty bores me and I just have to thrash it all out briefly to get it over and to look forward to a new week. I mean, not exactly looking forward, more like I'm forced to.
So anyway, our CO has pushed all plans of outfield exercises till April and May just to make way for us to train for our IPPT and SOC for the whole month of March since the first year window period is closing soon. It is really lame. We are slogging our asses out and perspiring like mad just because our CO wants to achieve the Best Unit award. Seriously, army life can be so meaningless sometimes. But do I have a choice? Obviously not.
Let's see, Monday and Tuesday got a "surprise" motivation talk course by some retired RSM who has become "enlightened" and has now come up with some motivation speech. He is hired for $5000 in a span of 2 days just because our CO hopes to train us mentally so we can perform well in IPPT. That was undescribably lame. Yeah, the talk was interesting at times, but most of the time I was just dozing away. So in the end, waste of time. They shouldn't give such prep talk to army guys. We are already burdened enough.
Wednesday and Thursday went through physical training. Was aiming for Gold for my IPPT. I have earlier passed my SOC on my first attempt. So was just concentrating on my IPPT. All along, my IPPT result is SILVER all the way. I managed to get gold standards for every single station except my 2.4km run which is really quite a challenge. And I just took IPPT test today. Guess what? I was only 10 seconds away from getting GOLD!! My timing was 9.54!! But it was a vast improvement for me. The next test will be on next Wednesday. My sergeant major had plans to focus on me and a group of silver elites. So hopefully he wants us to bring along glory. Yawnz. If not that I don't have a choice, I would rather be satisfied with a Silver. But I know I should always test my limits. And I do enjoy trainings. At least I have a 6-pack in exchange now, though it can be more defined. Lol. So I shall run with a smile no matter what! I LOVE TRAININGS I LOVE TRAININGS. Now get that right.
Sorry if the stuff above bores you. It kinda bores me writing about army. But I have no choice. I have to vent it out. Sorry I have stained you my poor bloggie. Ok so now let's talk about other stuff.
Hmm, sometimes I wonder, is it that hard for a guy and a girl to maintain just a platonic relationship? Why is it that it seems like an obligation to many that once a guy gets to know a girl, they got to be together? For me, I'm still the old-fashioned kind of guy who would want a near-perfect girl for a girlfriend and I would want my relationship to last! But the thing is, it seems somehow impossible in this real world.
Somehow, the unreal seems more appealing than the real, don't you think so? I mean, look at the real stuff. Wood rots, stone crumbles, and humans die eventually. Now look at the unreal. A legend lives forever, fairytales are "happily ever after", and the virtual world has simply no boundaries, free for you to explore... So the moral is? Worship the unreal.
I am real though. But I like to be unreal sometimes.
But people always say, get real. So what say you? Are you real too?
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